MOVED

I've moved,
catch me if you can~

It became clearer

Though I felt that I was partly at fault,
On the other hand I felt that I wasn't.
It was so contradicting,
I didn't know whether it was right or wrong of me to do that.
But I can tell you that there was one tiny bit in me,
that felt that I shouldn't have done it.
And there was that tiny part of me which regretted.
Well, we just made our relationship clearer to each other,
And expressed our views about each other clearer.
I didn't want this to happen,
because I've always believed that things wouldn't turn out so bad,
I still had that tiny bit of hope in our relationship.
That was the reason for the tiny bit in me that regretted.
Yes, perhaps I was a little too outspoken,
But what about you?
Don't you think that you were nowhere better too?
I admit that it's partly my fault,
But do you admit?
Forget it,
I'm sick of your nonsense anyway,
perhaps making ourselves clearer to each other will save me from being so tired of your nonsense.
Though I do not want this to happen at all.
PEACE.
Let's just not get so close.
Different people have different ways of living with their own beliefs.
I live mine and you live yours,
let's just not let our lives intersect okay?
Once again,
PEACE.

Short weekend ):

ONOW project on Saturday,
which meant that I only had today to rest.
Plus, school starts tomorrow ):
Promised myself that I would study,
end up I went to chop my hair and laze around at home.
My legs were aching so much and was so freaking tired that I slept in less than 15 minutes yesterday.
Bought new ear piece on Saturday,
happy~ (:
Okay, I go watch Scandal show already~
P.S JoongKi is so freaking cute (:

SuMyat

School today,
then meet up with SuMyat and Clarissa.
Lunch at fc2,
and movies in the library.
2 movies in a row,
almost died.
End up,
didn't wait for Clarissa and went to JP for dinner with SuMyat
Sorry Clarissa~
Reached JYSS when JYian Night ended,
seriously stupid.
People come out, we go in -.-
Catch up, left after staying for a short while because the place was freaking hot and stuffy and we felt freaking awkward.
All in all,
had fun spending the afternoon with SuMyat and Clarissa~
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I just realised that certain things are not within my control,
but it just irritates me sometimes,
I want to scream right at their faces and give them one tight slap.
Alright,
I'm really not going to care anymore,
I'm prepared to go solo.
I'm going to make you feel guilty and useless.

Just another one of those days

Today was just another day,
when I went home, sat down, and thought everything through.
And then I realised that I'm really tired from all those nonsense stupid things.
I started to dread seeing the same thing everyday.
Perhaps these thoughts came into my mind after I saw what happened today,
and then I started to reflect,
all the way from the beginning till now.
I always tell myself not to care,
but I really just can't stand it everytime when you're mentioned,
and everytime your actions being are spoken of.
I've seen through it,
everytime such things happen,
my self-defense becomes stronger.
The shield that I have just gets stronger.
One day,
it'll get so strong that if it breaks,
I may just fall apart.

Bad mood

I just hate it everyday,
I don't know what's real and what's not.
It just seems like everyone's wearing a mask,
including me.
I get so tired,
but there wasn't even once when I had the thought of pulling it away.
So afraid that I'll get hurt,
I just have to put it on everyday.
I always look like I don't care,
acts as if it doesn't bothers me,
now I'm really tired of all these nonsense.
I see the same faces everyday,
face the same kind of nonsensical stuff,
so tired that I can die.
I tell myself not to be so bothered,
but I just cannot bring myself to do it.
Is there anywhere for me to stop all these,
I just want a place where I can take off all guards and shield,
somewhere that can take me away from all these stupid nonsense.

Meaningless and complicated

It's just complicated,
because our thoughts are all different.
Therefore we tend to do things in our own way,
but not everyone has the same mindset.
We end up hating each other for their words and actions,
thinking why the hell did things turn out like this,
because it wasn't like that in the past.
Now,
certain things just get so meaningless,
you just feel like letting go of everything,
not showing concern to it.
Because there are times when you get tired of everything,
you just feel like letting go,
which may be the best choice to make you feel better.
However,
this is just the beginning.
There's more to come.