Not an issue

It doesn't matter if you hate me,
it doesn't matter if you have nothing good to say about me.
Life is just like that.
You cannot want the whole world to like you,
you cannot have the whole world to befriend you.
Different people have different mindsets,
so it really doesn't matter.
Because there are others out there who appreciate me.
I won't do anything to change the current situation,
because I know it'll be tiring and I'll soon get sick of trying.
You can never ever find and see my good points if you just dislike me,
because you are blinded by hatred towards me.
So,
whatever I do and say,
you only see the bad side and only have negative comments about it.
Forget it,
I won't do anything to change the way things are now,
because this is one of the lessons in life that I have to learn,
and now I'm learning it.

Please start anew, Florence

Got to know posting results today.
It wasn't that bad afterall.
But at least there's more advantages than disadvantages.
So,
Florence Lee will start her new life soon.
Throw away all those behind you and move on.
We all have to.
Even if things might not be very ideal,
you still have to move on.
Florence Lee's new life awaits her,
yet she can't wait any longer.
It's there, but the time is not right,
therefore she can't reach it.
Till then,
she will continue to learn the different aspects of life and live these remaining days to the fullest and learn as much as she can.
Because she doesn't wants her new life to be so bumpy like the previous one.

My nail polish

Because of that blister yesterday,
my poor finger is stuck with a plaster all day.
And when I took it off,
my nail polish came off as well.
I could see the pieces of golden so clearly.
Plus, my nails got chipped.
And, that Lancome cream got my palm all scratched.
And and, I got scalded by the sealing machine.
I'm really very glad that work ends early this week.
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My mood was bad all day thanks to you.
Sometimes, I just feel that I should keep my mouth shut and my opinions to myself.
There were times when I tried,
but you just don't see it.
Although I know that I shouldn't let you bother me,
but sometimes I just find it very irksome.
Alright, blame it on my temper,
I guess I should have controlled it better.
Anyway,
THANK YOU CASSANDRA LIM FOR TALKING TO ME IN THE AFTERNOON!
(I'm not shouting in a bad way)
Although it was rather random and crap,
although it was just only about a drama and a handsome hunk,
you really made my day just by talking to me.

Ah, yes.
It was this handsome we were talking about.
Big enough to see?
I guess so.

Damn, Blister

I worked till I got a stupid blister on my finger today.
Thanks to the scotch tape.
And got shot at indirectly for no perfect reason.
For being messy?
Oh please, how can things be so neat and tidy when things are rushing like a train?
I don't even have time to go toilet,
and yet I'm blamed for being too messy and hard to teach.
How ridiculous.
Seriously, I hate working with __.
Just so glad that work finishes at 5.30pm everyday this week.
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I'm used to all those that you've done to me,
walking in and out of my life,
always coming back when you have nowhere to go and no one to turn to.
Should I say that I'm immune to it?
Yes, perhaps I should put it that way.
Life is so realistic and practical.
People just judge you the first moment they see you.
Forgive me for being who I am.
If you can't,
it's fine with me.
Because I have strengths that others appreciate,
which you just don't.
I won't die,
it's not like the end of the world,
it's not like I cannot live without being on good terms with you.
There are millions and billions out there.
Fake, fake, fake.
Almost everything I see everyday is just so fake.
BFF, it doesn't exist in my dictionary anymore.

It doesn't matter

Work has kept me busy busy busy like crazy crazy crazy.
Florence had started to catch short naps in the mornings on her way to work on the bus almost everyday, like don't know since when.
Thank god she got to get some rest this weekend,
if not she's really going to get dark circles that look like sunglasses.
Recently,
Florence has also started to enjoy working especially with people like Serene, Joanne, Yun Shan and other aunties.
She likes bus trips with Serene :)
She likes to do sealing :)
She likes to talk to Yun Shan and Serene :)
She's beginning to like work :)
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It doesn't matter if you come and go,
because you are always doing that.
First you come and gave me hope,
and then you walk out when you've found something new.
I just want to tell you that it doesn't matter,
because I'm prepared for the day when you'll go and never come back.
I'm also prepared for the day when I'll start my life anew,
and that is when you leave and never come back.
But one day should we meet on the streets,
walk pass each other,
or should you come by and stop for a while,
I'll not fail to greet you and welcome you back.
But don't expect me to treat like how I'm treating you now,
because I believe that I'll not be the same anymore.
People always come and go,
there hasn't been one that stayed with me.
It doesn't matter because that way,
I learn to be independent and stay strong.

Mummy, I did it

The indescribable feeling,
the unstoppable heartbeat.
It all started with text messages,
and ended with just a phone call,
and tears of mixed feelings.
Part of them were joy, part of them were relief, part of them were disappointment.
Daddy, I managed to face it alone.
Mummy, I didn't fall so hard afterall.
Though the text messages set my heart beating at an irregular rhythm,
they made me felt warm inside.
They were like the weapons I brought along,
which helped me to face it so strongly.
Thank you mummy, for almost crying with me.
Thank you daddy, for being happy for me and telling me:'Well done!'
Thank you susu for always believing in me.
Thank you all those who told me that I've done well,
thank you for being happy for me.
And thank you all those who've gave me encouragement and motivation in times when I wanted to give up.
All these really gave me strength to face it and carry on.
Even if it's just saying 'Well done!',
it was a great motivation for me to move on.
But it's not over yet.
We still have 2 more weeks to go,
before the final verdict is set,
before I really know where I'll end up.
I don't ask for anything,
I only ask for all of you to be by my side.
I can move on and run alone,
you just have to be on the side line.
Even if it's just looking at you and knowing your presence,
it can really give me the strength to carry on.

Tomorrow is the 11th

Saying that I'm not afraid that tomorrow will come,
saying that it's just nothing,
and saying that I'm not nervous,
lies.
All lies.
But I know no matter how bad it is,
I have to accept it,
I have to face it.
That's why I told you not to come.
Be cause when I said it,
I'm trying to tell you that I want to face it alone,
it's not like how it used to be,
when you were always by my side.
I'm strong enough now to face it alone.
Even if tomorrow I realise that I'm not,
it doesn't matter.
Because one day you'll leave me,
one day I'll have to be on my own.
Waiting for so long,
it's tomorrow.
Ready for it?
To tell you the truth,
I'm not really ready to face it.

Reality

Work starts today.
You can tell I'm not really excited because this means waking up early and reaching home late.
It also means that I'll have lesser time to spend on my computer blogging and catching up on my dramas and of course, looking at K-Pop handsomes.
It's back to those days where I don't get to see the sun.
Money is my only motivation now,
nothing else.
And O-level results will be released on 11 Jan, next Monday.
It's time to face the reality.
Good or bad,
I just have to accept it.

Work, work, work

Florence Lee is going back to work tomorrow.
She's crossing her fingers and hoping hard that she ends up in the same department as Chua Taitai!
If not she'll die of boredom during work.
She also hopes that Phoebe gets the job next week,
so that she has a companion.
If not she'll be so alone when going home from work.
One of these two better come true,
if not Florence Lee will really get crazy.
Trust me,
she will.
Adieu~

K K K KBox

Out to KBox at Safra with Cassandra today~
Sorry Cass, I was late even if though you told me not to be.
Had fun but not the food.
And

Ice Honey Lemon ^^
And And

Jang jang!
She can sing and browse through her magazine at the same time!
And she loves to sit at the corner!
And and, I took this without her knowledge!
Ain't I great?

P.S I want to go ice skating, even if I don't know how to skate.

2010

Met up with Chua Taitai, SuMyat and Joni today,
ate, laughed, joke around like we used to :D
But left early for some reasons,
sorry babes :(
Spending time with them today,
it really brings back memories.
Florence shall spend her birthday meaningfully over at HongKong this year :D
she's spending it over at HongKong :D
Weeeeeeee~
KBox on Monday,
I can't wait because I miss Cassandra Lim :D
P.S I want to go ice-skating~
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Today's the first day of 2010.
Change all your calendars at home,
and don't write 2009 anymore when you are writing dates.
It's 2010.
I don't have any resolutions,
I just want to live life the way I want.
Perhaps this way my life may seem like one without goals,
but I guess the most important thing is to be happy and lead a meaningful life.
I wouldn't want any luxury,
I just want to live my life without regrets.