Afraid

Afraid to lose,
afraid to fall.

Afraid that no one will hold me when I can't stand,
afraid that no one will catch my tears if they fall.

Afraid of being left out,
afraid that one day I have to be on my own.

Afraid that no one will help me up when I fall,
or even hold me before I collapse.

So afraid,
afraid of so many things.

So afraid,
I have to be strong.

Even when I'm not,
I have to learn.
I tried hard,
I've learnt to be strong.

In times when I'm tired,
I still can't run away.

I still can't deny,

That I'm just too afraid,
that's why I have to be strong.
Even if I'm actually not,
I have to act like I am.

I hate this, really.

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只怪我的爱不够勇敢.
Words kept inside me,
they can suffocate me.