It's just, complicated

Witnessing the changes around me,
I just felt that things were too realistic.
As we grow older,
we tend to think differently,
according to the environment and the people around us.
We weren't as carefree and pure as before,
when it seems like little things can just make us happy for the whole day.
It wasn't like before anymore,
when we could gel so well together,
talking about being best friends,
and really meaning it.
Things have changed as we grow,
with reasons behind everything we do,
from making friends to not doing certain things,
there were reasons for doing so.
What made it sad was being so self-centred,
thus doing such acts.
It wasn't like before,
when we did things without any reasons,
we just did it because it makes us happy.
It was until I was on the way home with JiaChing today,
and we talked a little,
I realised all these.
As we grow older,
some of us became too self-protected,
some of us build a shield where nobody can easily break through,
while others did not.
Such that it appears so fake,
you don't know whether to open up to them or not,
yon don't know if you should trust them.
All because you don't know when are they real,
and when are they just entertaining you to make you feel better.
And certain people just don't mean what they say,
and it really makes them look so fake,
you dare not to be so close with them.
Because you're afraid one day you'll be hurt by them.
Or maybe,
I'm just too sensitive.