Childhood, can't find

Memories, they seemed to have gone missing.
Gone with the time, my life seems like a puzzle with a missing piece.
Ask me about my childhood,
I cannot tell you much.
Ask about my childhood friends,
I cannot tell you one true one.
Ask me if I have someone whom I grew up with,
I cannot give you an answer.
Looking through those flashbacks,
it seemed like my past was not what it was supposed to be.
There were many blur images,
there were many people with no exact faces.
Sometimes I even asked myself if it even existed.
Or was it just a dream?
So long that I only wake up now?
Well, it seems like one.
Because everytime I get these flashbacks,
it all seemed like a dream to me.
I tried reminiscing the past,
but it felt empty inside.
I tried finding back the past,
the people, the places.
But it all seemed so stranger to me.
So tired of finding them back,
I rather throw them all away.
But everytime when I want to start anew,
something inside me stops me from throwing these things away.